Steps....

Have you ever fallen down the stairs? Have you ever fallen away from God? I have done both; one because I tend to be clumsy and the other because I tend to be human. Both hurt and caused me to fear. But falling from God brought me alot futher down than the bottom of any staircase. It brought me to my personal and spiritual bottom. An experience of seperation from my family, my friends and my God. I stayed long enough to begin to believe that I wasnt able make the climb back or worse, I wasnt worthy of trying. My fear of both kept me there. It was conviction that finally brought me around and I found the courage and faith I needed to take that first step back in the right direction. It could be a long journey back up; but one I embrace. With each step I take I feel that much stronger and that much closer to the top and all that wonderful that awaits! Lord, Thank you - Thank you for never leaving me, for when I needed You most You were there to pick me up and show me the way. I love You. JR

Revive Me Praise and Worship

Alone? Anyone listening?

When my son, Noah is with his Dad I feel most alone. The house is empty and I miss hearing "Mommy"! I miss making him dinner, playing with Star Wars legos, tucking him into bed...I simply miss him. I realize at those times how alone I really am.
I know that I am supposed to find comfort in knowing that God is always with me, but even at times that isnt comforting, please forgive me Lord. So I wait, not sure what for or for how long the wait will be? But I know He has a plan; a much bigger and greater one for me than I could ever make or imagine for myself. So, I wait.
God Bless.

Noah...My Blessing

Children are definately a blessing from God! My son, Noah is my testimony to that. He makes me laugh when I feel like crying and crying when I hear that sweet laugh of his. He has always been a happy child and so sweet, blessed with a big heart like his Mom! I sit and watch him sometimes when he is sleeping, so inoccent in his thoughts and ways. Life is short but childhood is shorter and like many Mom's I worry about the times he grows up in and the world he will live in when he is my age. I know that the Lord is preparing him for those times as he is also preparing me. I hope we are both ready when we are faced with them. JR

Blogging?

Hmmm...so Im kinda new, actually brand new to this whole blogging thing. But I figured I would give it a try. Besides I would like to see what my Mini Mac can really do, besides checking email and housing around 100 widgets on my desktop, it hasnt done much else. Not really his fault though~I am a former PC'er and dont know my way around the Mac world yet. (but im learning).

Me....

I am a daughter of an artist and a self proclaimed inventor. Since I was born, I was made to create. first with paints, crayons, string, macaroni; anything I could get my hands one. I've created some silly, funny, beautiful things all of which brought me great satisfaction, I was meant to create.

Then life hit and my dreams of become something creative were somehow lost in the shuffle. But i didnt mind. A marriage and then a son, my life changed forever.

Then a divorce and life hit my dreams again. This time it seemed that survival was more important than anythiing. My hands would have to wait longer to create.

Im slowing getting that desire to create again. It excites me to feel it. Maybe my hands will be busy soon!